Geting everything ready for my departure

I guess it has finally hit me that I’m leaving Japan and going back home. I know that’s it’s only for one week, but it feels like I’m going to a foreign country. I have such a strange feeling just thinking about it. I mean going back is making me nervous since I’ve already made my plan of what I will be doing all week. I’ve announced to everything that I will be going back and even though I won’t be able to meet everyone that I want to, I will at least be seeing some of them and getting some things checked off my goals list. Those are really good things indeed.

My list of things has expanded with things that I want to do along side with things that I have to do while I’m there. I wouldn’t say that I’m very excited to go back, but it’s more of a numb feeling. I know that it’s just something that will just happen without me really realizing it. Being in Japan has really made me numb to everything. I seem to have no more feelings and it’s not something I really think about anymore. I just do the things that I have to do and that’s about it. It has become almost automatic how things happen. It’s just one thing after another and it’s a process that I just go through and not really get from. I think that’s a bad thing since I should be feeling and getting the experience that I’m living in a different country and that I have access to unlimited things if I only got off my ass and did something about it. I also feel pretty jaded since I now live in Japan and have done almost everything there is to offer in this country. I know that’s a little overstating it, but I’ve done more things than most other people have done or will do. The byproduct of making a kick ass plan of course.