National Holiday - Respect for the aged day

I spent today updating my blogger, and it’s finally all caught up and organized by date. I will find a way to integrate that with my website soon enough and I’m thinking about changing the design altogether, but I’m working on what I want it to look like. So it might take some time before I get started on that.

I took a little walk today to get dinner. I was looking for a few things, but when I got to the store, I had forgotten what I had wanted and just focused on what I would get for dinner. It wasn’t anything important, but then I was a bit afraid that one day, when something important comes up I don’t want to be forgetting it. I’m usually good with these kinds of things so I’m not sure what’s going on anymore. I’m very apathetic lately and I’m not sure why. But I need to change that and get back into the groove of things again or I’ll just continue to decline in my state of mind.

I was talking to some friends too. I haven’t done that in a long while. I need to update more of my blogs, but I’m about to do more than that later on tonight. I was able to wish my friend a Happy Birthday too, so I’m happy about that. We had a little conversation about how I’m out of touch with the world. I can’t seem to grasp the things that are going on in the world and that’s the reason why I feel like I’m out of touch.

I need to push myself to be more receptive of these things. I’ve had a lot of thinking time today. But I’m not being able to focus on the things that I want to be focusing on. The main thing that has been clouding up my free time is my website that I really have no access too. I want to make it very good and add a slideshow with my pictures using flash, but I’m very incompetent when it comes to flash. But deep down inside and ever since high school I always have had this burning to conquer it. I’ve failed many times to get flash to work for me, but this year I feel that since the other things in my life have been falling into place and I’ve tried things again that I’ve once couldn’t do, that its possible that I might be able to get flash going for me this year too. I want to take another stab at it, and I’m afraid that it will be the only thing that consumes my time, but I won’t be able to move forward until I give it a try. That’s the bad thing about this situation, I’m going to have to succeed in it or it’ll take up too much time. It won’t be wasted effort since that’s what I want to do, but I don’t want to burden myself with too much work from trying to get it to work for me.