One hell of a day

Today was busy to say the least, but it was adventurous. I had fun today, but it really did tire me out.

I woke up early to go to school because today 8th and 9th graders were going to watch October Sky. I really like that movie and thought it was great. Even though it was all in Japanese and that I didn’t understand what they were saying. It’s a good thing that I’ve seen it already so that was good. Mr. Eto even mentioned that I came to school on my day off because I wanted to watch this movie. He added more comments at the end about the story that I explained to him. That was pretty cool, but weird. I’m really in trouble though because of another teacher. I really feel lost and feel as if things are really slipping away from me. I’m in a hard situation that I really can’t control and I just have to live with it.

Afterwards another teacher was giving out lunches to people and I happened to be one of the lucky ones to get one. I didn’t have time today to buy a lunch so it was perfect. After the lunch, I studied a little Japanese and then Ms. Abe invited me to go watch a soccer game. It was really cool because we went to the National Stadium in Shibuya-ku next to Sendagaya station. It was the Chiba JEF United versus the Ibaraki Antlers. I know silly names, but I didn’t care because I was with Ms. Abe, who happens to be the older sister of a very famous Captain of the JEF United soccer team. So I got to meet the Abe family and sit with their 60 closest relatives as we were watching the game. There were two other teachers too, so it was really fun to go and see. You really get into the game when you’re there and not watching it on TV. It really is amazing since I didn’t like soccer before I came to Japan, but now I really do enjoy watching it.

After that I went back home. When I got home and finished dinner, MTki invited me over to her house since a bunch of her friends were over. We ate more and she gave me a gift from one of her friends that I met last week. It was like an anko cake, which wasn’t all that great, but some expensive stuff from what everyone told me. She was having a difficult time because she had to take care of some stuff. The son of her husband’s friend got into an accident. He was hit by a car while riding his bike and was sent to the emergency room. Then the girl two spaces away from had committed suicide while he was there. So it was a very eventful day for him. We watched two movies while I was there. I saw about half of phone booth and all of Daredevil. They have cable television so they get to see a lot of movies. Plus TTki has a large collection of DVD’s that he rents out to people who want to see them. I felt a little awkward though. I learned a lot of new things that made me feel uneasy. It was weird because I stopped doing private lessons with one of her friend’s daughter and the parents were there. They didn’t mention anything about it, but they didn’t act normal around me either. So I’m not sure what’s going on with that. I only stopped lessons because she wasn’t going anyways and my school schedule had changed so I don’t have Wednesday’s off anymore.

At the end of the day, I feel as if I’m just watching life pass me by. I felt really accomplished this week because I was teaching great classes. I really thought that I made a good impression on the other teachers and the students and started off the school in a good way. But then I feel so left behind all at the same time. I realize now that there’s a hole in my life that hasn’t been filled yet, and needs to be. But every opportunity that I’ve had for so long has now gone away. The moment was long ago and I missed the boat. It’s really starting to eat at me and I’m not sure what I’m going to do about it. I’m not in a position to do much about it anyways, but I need to figure out a way to actually be able to do something about it. I’m not sure that I’ll be able to succeed, which are rare words to come out of my mouth or my mind for that matter. Well, I’m not sure… I’ll see what I can do about it. I mean I couldn’t give up even if I wanted to. I’m in too deep now and there’s nothing I could do about it.