A day in Shibuya with SEK

The day started around 10am for me today. I wouldn’t say that I had the nicest sleep, but it wasn’t so bad since it wasn’t as hot as it could be. I think that’s a relief from last summer when this time was already topping 40 degrees Celsius with humidity. That was tough, but today I was just sweaty and sticky being at home and sitting down. The plan for today was to go to Shibuya to meet up with my friend that I haven’t seen since I was back in San Diego for spring break.

I was talking to a lot of friends that are in San Diego now. I think that, now, being away from college, things that I see are much different. I first was talking to ICn and it was about the same topic as last time. I was in a much better mood about it today and sounding more logical than emotional, so I think that she was happy to hear that.

Then I started to talk to ACk and AWs. They are very interesting people. But essentially we were all talking about the same topic, except for ACk, we were going back and forth between well, the topic. These were pretty long conversations that I had with these people and I thought it was well enjoyed, even though the topic wasn’t one that I really wanted to talk about.

I then finished my msn experience talking to JLn. I haven’t talked to her for a long time. She seems well, but in a bit of trouble now that she’s at a university and it costs much more than I think anyone expected. It’s something that I’m worried about for her, and of course she’s worried about that too. We also talked about the person who I’m renting my apartment from. It turns out that they are no longer friends because of a decision that she chose, but I could understand why he would think that way.

I’m thinking about that position myself. What to do and what do I want to occur.

I then started my journey to Shibuya, since I knew that it would be about 2 hours to get there. The walk was fine, not so hot, but everyone was sweating a lot, even me. It was weird since it wasn’t that hot, but I guess that the humidity was really high, but it didn’t feel like it was. On the train, I was reading the Richest Man in Babylon again. The chapter I’m reading now, which is about good luck, isn’t very interesting and I haven’t been able to get into it. I think it could be the heat or something, but I couldn’t focus on reading today, so I just ended soon after that.

When I was on the connecting train to Shibuya, I saw this girl that was just amazingly beautiful. I was surprised because she was dressed very simple and wasn’t trying to impress anyone, but I could see that she’s very beautiful. I usually don’t comment on people like this, but I felt I needed to today. It was almost shocking, she reminds me of the AU commercial where they are at a zoo and the guy is downloading a song for her to listen to and she runs off.

Then I sat in front of Hachiko for about 45 minutes because my friend was a tad bit late. I arrived about 15 minutes early and she arrived about 30 minutes late. That might be pretty good for her too, but I can’t remember that far back.

The first thing we did was just walk around. We were just wondering at first and went into condomania, which was my first time. Nothing impressive about it though and it was the smallest store I’ve ever been to. Then we walked around to Tower Records, she was looking for a Crystal Kay CD. It was weird that we couldn’t find it. She’s very popular and I wouldn’t know why she wasn’t anywhere to be found. She usually has a display or something around, so that was weird. Then we did a print club thing and took weird ass pictures. We tried to make AWs jealous…damn we’re evil.

We took some time off at Doutor and drank some coffee and tea for about an hour or maybe two. I’m not sure how long it was, but it was a fun conversation that we had. I noticed that I wasn’t very diplomatic with my language and being very direct about things. It made things funny though, so I was happy and she was happy. I really feel that we relate with each other very well. I’m glad to know such a strong woman. She’s got really ambitious dreams that are high and lofty, but I know that she’s going to reach them and then some. She’s strong-willed and it’s something that is inspiring for me and others to see.

Then we just started walking around. We ended up going to a different place from where we intended to go. I believe she wanted to go to Harajuku, but we went the opposite direction and ended up near Daikanyama station. It’s a really nice area with fancy stores and a few fancy restaurants.

We decided to have dinner at an Italian restaurant since we only found three restaurants and all of them were Italian. I think that made our decision quite simple. We ended up eating at the third one we found, since we were standing in front of it and it was convenient. She had pasta with shrimp, and I had a Norwegian Salmon with spinach with cream sauce.

Before we started eating we started talking about serious things. I asked about her and her ex-boyfriend. I had just recently heard about them breaking up after 2 years of going out, and I needed to inquire since I thought that they would eventually get married. But after a few minutes, I believe I understood why she broke up, and it made complete sense. She wasn’t being selfish about it either, but more for the encouragement for him to pursue his dreams. But he’s got to establish them first. I really could understand her point, but I also believe that he’ll be able to do it.

But since I asked her, she had to ask me about what’s going on with BH and me. To which I responded I don’t know. Since I really don’t know what’s going on anymore. But she gave me concrete details that made my decision solid. She told me something that made sense to me about why this situation occurred. It turns out that while I was in San Diego, BH and her boyfriend had already been going out. Other people thought that since we spent so much time together that they just assumed that she had told me about him, but in fact she didn’t even mention him. During that week, we were talking about two other guys, since I was inquiring about my organization that I recently started, and watched her destroy, but it turned out to be much more than what I had originally realized. So for the past 4 months, she’s been stringing him along while she insists that she loves me. That’s wrong on many levels, since she cheated on him, and she cheated on me, at the same time. That’s skillz, but in the wrong sense. She’s been very deceitful for him and for me. She doesn’t deserve my friendship, but being the great guy I am, I have decided to give her a chance. I want her to fix everything, and if she could do it, I’ll consider her friendship, but if she could not, then I could not either.

I have always learned that trust is gained once and lost once. Even if she’s my friend, I will never trust her again. I really feel sorry for her because she will never change and she will only end up doing this to other people. She will always be at the mercy of other people, and she will never be happy. I think that’s a very tragic life, and that’s why I offer her a second chance, but I expect her to fix things and make them better, which I believe is next to impossible. But I never say things are impossible, so she can do it, if she really loved me, she would do it.

After this conversation, we started eating our food that was cold now. The first bite was pretty good though. The alcohol didn’t go well with the pasta though. I didn’t feel sick, but it just didn’t taste good with pasta. We ended dinner around 9pm, which was a good time for her to go home since her dad is strict. It was nice to see her though. I’m glad that I did and also glad she was straightforward with me. I appreciate that. We parted ways at Daikanyama station. I came home soon after that and started typing this entry. I didn’t read at all on the way home.