Quite an interesting day

The day started off very very interesting. I think that this post might be longer than some of my other ones and they are usually 1-3 pages long. Sorry folks, if you don’t want to read you don’t have to. It’s concerning the drama that’s been going on in San Diego that I’m somehow apart of, but since I’m not there, I’m not sure how I’m involved. But explanation below:

My ex-girlfriend called me today. Not long after I woke up this morning. We didn’t have much of a dialogue, but I was listening to a lot of what she had to say. I was only helping her out by asking her to clarify what she meant. Here’s the best part, she called me while she was at a temple in Taiwan. Who the hell calls their ex when they are in the middle of a praying ceremony to the ancestors in the middle of a freaking temple? The only thing she wanted to do at this time was to make an appointment to talk to me later, but I let her know that this might be the only chances she gets since I’m a very busy guy and she got lucky that I have time now. Of course, it wasn’t very convenient for her, but then again, she called me. Her bad!

She was trying to explain to me what’s been going on in the past 4 months. She kept telling me that she didn’t lie to me, but I think that all of you, intelligent people, could figure out that when I person says they aren’t lying, they probably are. And here’s the best part, she was trying to prove she wasn’t lying to me too. In fact she put the blame on me saying that it was because I wasn’t communicating with her that caused it. Well, as a matter of fact, she wasn’t communicating with me and I wanted to get back at her for that. In the first months of this year, I had sent her a bunch of e-mails that she never responded to, so I stopped responding to hers. I felt it was fair. She’s been hiding the fact that she’s had a boyfriend for a few months, and then she was misleading me about all the facts while I was in San Diego for spring break telling me about other guys that were pursuing her instead of her boyfriend. Yes they were already together before I went back for spring break.

She was explaining to me that if I wanted to know more, I should have asked her about her relationship. She didn’t want to show off that she had a boyfriend in front of me. Mind you, I only found out about them 2 weeks ago when one of my friends blew up on me, for what I thought was for no reason at all. I mean, what the hell could I do to make someone’s life a living hell, when I’m not in the same hemisphere. And I’ve only met that person once in my life. She has realized what she has done playing with everyone’s hearts. But everyone can see through her now, and my guess is that there will be no one left in San Diego in our group that will really be her friend. I think because our group is nice, they’ll talk to her sometimes, but I think everyone will keep their distance. We have a saying that goes; a person who tries to get two rabbits ends up getting none. She told me once before that she loves attention and because she thinks she’s cute and can get guys, but in the end, she’ll end up old and alone. No one would want her because of her flawed personality. That’s tragic. I thought about doing something bad to her, but I realized that she already did it to herself. She’s going to drowning in her own regret when she loses everything of value around her. I’m not mad or anything, but I’m just watching karma kick her ass. If you don’t believe in it, trust me, it’s not pretty. She cheated on her ex-boyfriend before, and she cheated on me too, so it’s all coming back to haunt her now. I learned from my mentor that it never pays to lie, and now I can clearly see why.

People in life don’t get what they want, they get what they deserve. If you’re poor and starving, it’s your own damn fault. You’re so arrogant that you can’t go ask your family or friends for help to get yourself back on your feet just to eat and live. People who are selfish and greedy are easily recognized by people and when they see it, they fight it off with a stick. I’ve seen the worst in people now, and can clearly understand that I don’t want to go down that path. Shit, she lost everything… She’s still madly in love with me, and that’s the cause of her problems in her current relationship. Her boyfriend can’t handle it, but really can’t blame me either since I’m really not involved than being the guy she likes. So it’s wrong if they are together and she’s still in love with me. But for me that’s unacceptable behavior and completely inexcusable.

Anyways, on to more important things that happened today. I finally started making the postcards that I’m going to send to my friends. I don’t have many addresses so I can’t really send that many out. I’d like to, but I just don’t have people’s mailing addresses, so if you want one, you’re going to have to let me know soon. I won’t be here forever, that’s for sure.

I’ve been using AIM recently. I enjoy it better nowadays since there really isn’t much drama found with those friends. I don’t have many people I talk to though, since most of them sleep earlier or aren’t online. I’ve been talking to one of my friends that I call my soulmate for the past tow nights now. It’s really interesting since we’ve met long ago and still talk now. She’s been having her difficulties too. She had recently broken up with her boyfriend, and now he’s being a dick about it. She just graduated so now she’s looking for a job. But that’s pretty hard since she has to look for a job in San Francisco when she’s in Davis. She’s got to move out this month too and she’s normally from So Cal. So this will be a difficult transition for her. I feel bad because I really can’t do anything to help her out of the situation.

I let my sister know about the situation today too. She thought it was pretty interesting. I don’t think she really liked my ex-girlfriend either, so she was a bit happy that she’s out of my life now. We always thought of her as a psycho person, but she’s really gone over the top now. Bad news today too, my sister informed me that someone broke the mirror on my baby. Some kids were walking down my street in San Diego and went around breaking people’s car windows and mirrors and my car was parked on the street and was a victim. It’s going to cost $400 to replace. I’m not really mad about it, but if I was there, I would have gotten my gun and blew their knee caps out and ripped out the fingernails one by one till they bled to death. Damn assholes broke the mirror on my benz dude. I’m hella pissed now.

Then my ex-girlfriend’s now ex-boyfriend sent me an e-mail about his ex-girlfriend saying that he decided to break up with her. He thought it was understandable that I don’t get involved with it, and that he has no beef with me. But he’s lost his respect for her and warned me about her. But it should have been me warning him about her. I really feel sorry for him because he was just used the whole time. I’m not sure if he enjoyed it or not, but I had the feeling that he was intending to marry her and I think that’s why there was so much trouble. I think that she still has in her mind to marry me, but there’s no way in hell that I’m up for that shit. She’s a dirty little person and I have no respect for her. So I think that she’s done a good job to get everyone to lose respect for her. Its sad how all this breaks down though.

But after all this that happened today, I really do generally feel happy. Today’s weather wasn’t very hot at all. I didn’t get a chance to go out though, although I really wanted to. It even rained a little bit today, which I thought was very weird. So I probably got really fat today because I didn’t do much but sit in the same spot for the entire day. I was playing a lot of computer games that I downloaded off the internet and the traditional games like MS hearts and Solitaire too. I’ve gotten so good at those games. It’s really ridiculous. I’m sorry, but I think I’m going to make this post hidden, which would be the first, but it’s been a little too personal to have open and exposed online.