Wanting to work, but not

Well, the plan today was to finish up all the textbook errors and to get all the last minute things done for my class, but I didn’t even get close to even starting it. I was talking with my sister today for a few hours. It was good; we talked a bit about school and the future. I think that things are starting to be more unclear since I’m a bit worried about going back to the United States. Things in Japan have been very easy for me, even though living in a different country is a different experience; I think I will have more trouble going back. I’m getting a bit tense about the future and actually how I’m going to pay for university. I have saved up a good amount of money, but it’s not enough to get me what I want. When I was talking with my sister today, there was an earthquake again. It wasn’t a very big one, but there was one nonetheless.

After we finished talking, and because it was very late for her and I had gotten up late this afternoon, I needed to go out and get some food. I decided that I have been eating a lot of rice recently so I would make some soumen that I got as a gift from the school. I have a lot of it, so I made two batches tonight, which was a bit much for me. I finished it and that was a surprise to me. I went to the grocery store in the rain to get some things that I needed to eat with the soumen. It turned out really nice and I’m glad that I did it. I even made some food for tomorrow’s breakfast and lunch; if I get up early enough to make it. I don’t have to get up early tomorrow, but it will be the first day of school for me and I am a bit tense about that too.

I also picked up my dry clean today, so I have a fresh new suit to wear to work. I’m ready for this year to begin. I haven’t touched the textbooks for the 11th grade yet and probably won’t till tomorrow. I will try to see if I can work on the computers at school so I could do it there. I hate to do work at home, and it is much better to get it all finished and done at school. I’ll see what I need to do tomorrow though. I wasn’t really productive in any way today either. I was just reading a lot of the news.

I downloaded a new program that actually downloads the internet offline. It is an interesting tool, but I haven’t gotten it to work yet. I need to work out the bugs on it and see what’s going on. I wonder if I still have the virus that attacked my computer last week. I hope it went away, but things aren’t sure since my computer has been acting funny recently and my mouse too. Anyways, I should get to bed since I should get up early to get breakfast and finish up the things I need for school.

Also, I am thinking about going back to the U.S. for a day or two. The orientation for UCI is on April 22nd and that’s a Saturday. I might go back after school on Friday and get their early. If I do that I will make it in time for the orientation and have a good two days in America after that. I could go back to San Diego and get a few things and also bring all my winter clothes back too and a lot of the junk that I won’t need in Japan anymore. That way I am already starting to move back. I think that will be a good idea if I can do it. I’m waiting on the acceptance letters for the other schools before I make any decision though. But I think I will have to decide if I will go with that plan by the end of this week. So hopefully I begin to hear something this week.

Another thing that has been on my mind is the concept of freedom. Something that I have been talking with my friends and family is freedom. I mean living in Japan, I have a whole lot of freedom from family and all the stress that I had when I was in the states. But it does come at a cost that I really do have to take care of myself. I have to do a lot more things here on my own than I ever had to in the US. I miss being home as much as I don’t. There is always a balance between the two and I’m trying to see where I fit in with that. I think that most Americans really have no idea about the concept of Freedom, based on the things I read up on the news. Of course that is only according to the writer’s opinions, but things aren’t always made with a very good perspective. Well I’ll write more on this later, I’m getting tired and I’m sure this isn’t making much sense.

Song of the moment – Bob Marley – Redemption song