Mother's day

I didn’t do anything today again. I didn’t even get a chance to talk to my mother. We were joking yesterday that I was being “hikikomori” which is someone who stays indoors and away from society, but I really feel that it exactly what I’ve been doing. Not only is it what I’ve been doing, but it’s all that I want to do too. That makes things worse.

I watched a lot of TV today, even though there wasn’t anything good on. So I was just tuning through the 5 channels that I have. I really do have humble surroundings and truly appreciate everything that I have. I realize all that I had before too and things that I’ve taken for granted.

I made the soup that my mom has made before since its mother’s day I thought I would cook up something that would remind me of what my mother would make. That was it actually. I spent a lot of time cooking and preparing to cook. I forgot some vegetables for the soup, but it still turned out ok. It was still tasty and a bit sweeter than it was when I did it before. My stomach hurts though, but not like the pain that I would have to go to the bathroom, but it’s a dull pain near the back of my stomach. I think that’s weird, but I won’t worry about it until it persists for a little bit longer.